I want a new little baby in the house, I don’t want my kids to grow-up, and I am wishing I could do last December again (delivering Mckay, bringing her home, and all the good stuff that came with that).
Now I know to many of you these feelings are not weird, but they are new to me. Previously I have not been a fan of little babies- I think having perfect baby Mckay changed that- and especially not a fan of the 9 months of feeling sick all the time in order to get the baby. Which by the way is the reason that I don’t think we’ll have a baby any time soon. As much as I want a baby, I am just not ready for the 9 months of nausea that comes along with it.
Also previously I’ve always been anxious and excited for the day all our kids are grown or out of the house so Jon and I can play, have more freedom, and serve a mission. And I’ve always been excited about my kids getting older; not really sad about leaving the stages they have gone through. It’s hard to explain exactly how I feel now, but I am sad about leaving this stage of life/motherhood. I am happy and loving it- being a mom is wonderful! (well- not quite as wonderful when Mckay’s not sleeping well- but overall it’s great!)
(I actually wrote these thoughts almost 4 weeks ago... but just now posting)
Also, if I keep trying to play catch up on my posts it will never happen and I'll give up. So I am just starting fresh and hopefully will be more regular now.
1 week ago
4 comments:
Amazing what these kids do to our hearts, huh. =)
Merry Christmas!
Totally not kidding when I say part of the reason I wanted more than 2 kids was because I didn't know what to do if I was only a Mom for a "short" period of time. It's already hard for me knowing that Gabe is in nursery and I'm not ever getting pregnant again. But, I'm ready for the next stage of my kids lives...beyond the baby years...you know, actually get out and camp and not be so worried about naps and not sleeping well and bringing all the "special" food required for babies. So, have some more babies and I promise, you will feel fulfilled when the time is right :)
I've been baby-crazy for about 4 years now. But in high school I was able to get by through regular babysitting and nannying in the summer. Now I don't have that outlet... I guess it's time to get married ;) Kidding. But for my sanity I need to make a playdate with your kids soon! I'll give you a call tomorrow :) Hope you are all doing as well as you seem to be!
I love the updates! Being a mom is great! I admire women like you that have more than 1 baby, despite being sick. I'm not as strong and I think Heavenly Father knows that. Adorable pictures of the kiddos!
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